Little Yurt on the Steppe

On the road to Cyberia I took a wrong turn and ended up on the Great Eastern Plains. Fortunately, a group of Khalkha nomads took me in and taught me the secrets of life on the steppe. Now, I sit in my yurt, eating mutton dumplings and drinking a weak milk tea as I recount my tales of this Mongolian life.

středa, prosince 31

Meanwhile, France suffers from the tyranny of its own indigestion

"Palestinian and Israeli leaders finally recover the Road Map to Peace, only to discover that, while they were looking for it, the Lug Nuts of Mutual Interest came off the Front Left Wheel of Accommodation, causing the Sport Utility Vehicle of Progress to crash into the Ditch of Despair."

Full story courtesy of America's favorite investigative humorist, Dave Barry.

pondělí, prosince 29

Weak unions, poor economy, worse democracy

Politically, the most important development in my life of 2003 would have to be my growing belief in unionism and the necessity of a strong labor movement. You'd think someone with at least marginal Marxist leanings would have proclaimed, after reading the Manifesto, "workers of the world, unite!" but I've always been a little less than orthodox and doctrinaire in such matters.

I blame, of course, my adviser, Nancy MacLean, for pushing me in this direction. Had she not coaxed me along gradually over the past year or so, I don't know that I'd ever have come to such an appreciation. Not that I'm just blindly following her out of slavish devotion or admiration. But she's the first person to have made me really contemplate labor issues and this movement and its broader implications. The rest was up to me.

At first, I came to this issue fairly naively. When I began thinking belatedly about jobs and career opportunities, she suggested working for a union. So I investigated it online and found that many unions are extremely progressive on a lot of issues, at least the ones that really matter. I was intrigued.

I suppose this is a natural corollary to some of my new economic thinking, coming to gradually embrace market principles, though not free markets. But well-run, uncorrupt unions are a healthy check on fiscally conservative politicians and robber barons. You can see a pretty good explanation of that from, of all people, Jonathan Lansner, the business columnist for the Orange County Register.

Sure, unions aren't perfect or sinless, but a lot of the labor rights most Americans have never fathomed because they take them for granted so much owe to the work of unions in the early 20th century. Things like the weekend, and eight-hour workday, health and vacation benefits, workers compensation, workplace safety, et al. Your job may suck, but it'd be infinitely worse in the absence of such restrictions. (Trust me, I've worked as a salaried temp not protected by hour limits, overtime or benefits of any sort.)

But, sadly, unions are on the decline. As are labor rights. I'm not sure which preceded the other, but they're certainly related. And the end result is that it's bad business if you're not one of the corporate executives drawing a salary that grows with each successive layoff and outsourcing of jobs overseas.

If we ever want to have an economy that benefits all classes of society, instead of just the ultra-rich at the expense of the middle and lower classes, or a vibrant democracy, we need some good, strong unions to act as a check on employers.

sobota, prosince 27

Home is where the heart is

Not much to say. I feel like I'm in sort of a rut. Hopefully it's just a temporary lull, the sort of thing prompted by being home.

There's not exactly a lot for me to do here. Frankly, if my parents didn't live here, I don't know if I'd ever return. Beyond them, there's not a lot that ties me to the land. There's my cousin Kyle. Then my longtime friend Dave. Number three? Try the Los Angeles Kings. That's right, a professional hockey franchise. Number four would be the Anaheim Angels. Or maybe the perennially good weather (that nasty Christmas rain this year notwithstanding).

It sort of became dramatically apparent on Christmas Eve just how detached I am from the O.C.

Per normal, we went to Long Beach to the annual Christmas Eve bash our distant cousins have. Of course, they're actually something like my third cousins once removed. And that's just the one family. Everyone else is related by marriage to them, meaning they're really no relation to us.

Confused? So was I. They're all nice people, but there are a lot of them. And with the exception of a scant few, they're all people I see but every Christmas Eve. It's hard for me to remember most of their names, let alone any meaningful details about their lives.

And frankly, I was kind of dreading it this year. It's an occasion not unlike a high school reunion (or what I imagine it to be, given that I've never been to one, nor to I plan on ever going to any of mine). You see people you haven't seen for a long time, update them on what the hell you've been up to in the past year and make other small talk. It's great, I imagine, if you have some big news to share, like a new baby, a new job, things like that. But it's not exactly fun if you're in sort of a valley in your life.

As I am. Sure, I graduated from college, but that was way back in June. There's not much of a what-have-you-done-for-me-lately dimension to my life. I worked a temp job I hated, I got rejected for a job with an orphanage because I was overqualified, I'm hoping to go start grad school in the fall. Yeah, sounds like fun.

Mercifully, I didn't really enter into any involved inquisitions. In most cases the conversation stuck to really mundane, non-specific "how ya doin'" banter without veering into more treacherous waters. And I didn't encounter too many people. In part that owed to me arriving with my cousin a couple of hours before most of the guests, and in part to me sitting with my nose buried in a book for most of the evening.

Nonetheless, I just felt out of place. I half resolved never to go back there on Christmas Eve, but I know that won't work. And I'd probably feel a lot more miserable staying home alone if I knew everyone else was there.

This all came as something of a surprise to me. I knew in the days leading up to Christmas Eve that I wouldn't really enjoy it. But I had thought in the abstract that this was a tradition I'd miss at the holidays if, in the future, I wasn't home at that time of year.

But now I know that it's not really a priority in my life. That's good, since there's a distinct possibility that I might not be here at Christmas. I really got to thinking about what it'd be like to be with Colleen and her family back in Erie instead, and it was an idea that appealed to me.

On the obverse of the coin, I don't like the thought of abandoning my parents. Given that, save for the folks we visit on Christmas Eve, our extended family is all in Indiana and Michigan, it'd seem particularly empty in the house if it wound up just being the two of them. In some strange way, I really like the idea of my parents being in Erie with everyone else. It's a strange thought, but then, not so bizarre as some of the constellations you get with any extended family. I don't know, maybe it's just that I like the abstract thought of being in Erie, where I know everyone's name (it's sort of like "Cheers" in that regard), they know all about me, and it's easier for me just to relax and have a good time. Then again, maybe this is a slightly idealized vision. Maybe Colleen's family will stop lavishing so much attention on me once I've seen them a few more times.

Who knows?

čtvrtek, prosince 25

Mission accomplished ... by the Kurds

From Agence France Presse:

Saddam was held by Kurdish forces, drugged and left for US troops
Sat Dec 20, 11:00 PM ET

LONDON, (AFP) - Saddam Hussein was captured by US troops only after he had been taken prisoner by Kurdish forces, drugged and abandoned ready for American soldiers to recover him, a British Sunday newspaper said.

Saddam came into the hands of the Kurdish Patriotic Front after being betrayedto the group by a member of the al-Jabour tribe, whose daughter had been raped by Saddam's son Uday, leading to a blood feud, reported the Sunday Express, which quoted an unnamed senior British military intelligence officer.

The newspaper said the full story of events leading up to the ousted Iraqi president's capture on December 13 near his hometown of Tikrit in northern Iraq, "exposes the version peddled by American spin doctors as
incomplete".

A former Iraqi intelligence officer, whom the Express did not name, told the paper that Saddam was held prisoner by a leader of the Kurdish Patriotic Front, which fought alongside US forces during the Iraq war, until he negotiated a deal.

The deal apparently involved the group gaining political advantage in the region.

An unnamed Western intelligence source in the Middle East told the Express: "Saddam was not captured as a result of any American or British intelligence. We knew that someone would eventually take their revenge, it was just a matter of time."

úterý, prosince 23

Amen

"Everyone's here, the whole world. All the left-wing intellectuals."

"You can drop that 'left-wing,'" said Onno, "because the alternative is a contradiction in terms."

Literacy is the path to communism

Some odds and ends from times recent...

My parents' ISP, Adelphia, sucks. For the past several days, our Internet access has been nonexistent in the mornings. Or it has the habit, like today, of returning for a brief time, then going down again before I've had a chance to get online and check mail. Cable Internet is great because of the speed, but my experience is that all the companies that offer it leave much to be desired in terms of how often the service goes down without warning and how lousy customer service is. I didn't think anyone could be worse than Comcast, my ISP in Chicago, but Adelphia has proven me wrong. And let's not even get started on DSL....

Efforts to revise my thesis to fit criteria for publication are proving much more difficult than expected. Principally, the challenge is to take my original work, which was very insightful and thorough and engaging, and more or less cut it in half to get it under the 35- to 40-page upper limit for the journal where I want it published, the Radical History Review. So far I've concentrated mainly on retyping it and editing it as I go, since I originally wrote it in AppleWorks as I didn't have Microsoft Word at the time. It was about 46 pages in AppleWorks, with 2.5 spacing and notes, excluding the pictures, bibliography and other parts not in the core text. Converted to Word, with double spacing (including notes, which are also unfortunately 12-point font) and the stingy 1.5-inch left and right margins, I'm running 62 pages. It's only 48 pages of text, which is good, but I can't exactly excise the notes. My plan of attack now is to construct a new outline and attempt to rewrite it, cutting out as much background as possible (I'm not sure how I'll swing that), in the hopes that I can pare it down to something that better approximates the page limit. Thus it looks like I'll be working on this beyond vacation, which might at least give me something to occupy my time while I continue to look for work back in Chicago....

Another long-range goal I've set for myself is to read. A whole lot. Ideally, I'd like to tackle pretty much everything on my roommate's bookcase between now and whenever I leave Chicago, presumably sometime this summer when I move to grad school. Oh, and that's in addition to the large collection of books on journalism and communism we've inherited from our mentor, the dearly departed Dick "Naughy Shirley" Schwarzlose. Not to mention the handful of unread books of my own lying around the apartment. It's no small task and will be no mean feat if I pull it off. Of course, to do that, I'd realistically have to read close to one book every day or two for the next couple of months, which seems somewhat unlikely. Especially if I'm to keep to my New Year's Resolutions: 1) study Czech and German a minimum of five hours and at least three days a week, 2) to write at least five substantial entries in my blog each week and 3) to cease buying soda to keep in my apartment. But it's good to set such lofty goals....

On the subject of books, I really need to get my site set up so I can provide a picture and link of what I'm currently reading. Or develop some side section of current and recent reads that I update with regularity. (Something along those lines might actually be better if I prove fairly industrious and read several books a week.) In the meantime, I'll have to content myself with making a point of regularly mentioning my current reading list in these pages....

To bring you up to speed on that, here's where I stand:

At the moment I'm working on two books by the Dutch author Harry Mulisch. One of them, I should say, I read half of it at a Borders in Evanston about two weeks ago and plan to read the second half whenever I can steal away to a chain bookstore for a couple of hours to finish the second half. That book would be The Assault.

The second Mulisch novel, The Discovery of Heaven, is a bit lighter and more frivolous, at least if the first 140 pages are an accurate indication. (It's 730 pages in all, so quite a lot could happen between where I am now and the end of the book.) That book I checked out from the Anaheim Public Library, having to pick it up as the library didn't have The Assault and this was its only Mulisch novel.

On that same library jaunt, I picked up three novels by Milan Kundera, who's rapidly becoming my favorite author, though I can't quite place my finger on what it is about him that merits such an honor. Perhaps it's just how engaging his novels are. Whatever it is, I'm yet to read a work by him that didn't completely draw me in and want to not put the book down until I had finished. That was certainly the case with the first three Kundera novels I read, The Unbearable Lightness of Being, The Joke and Ignorance. Also true of the first of the three I got from the library, The Farewell Party. Once I finish my current book, I'll start in on Life is Elsewhere and then Slowness.

After that, I'll read Greg Palast's The Best Democracy Money Can Buy, which my parents have. And I'd like to give Boris Pasternak's Doctor Zhivago a second read so I won't have to haul my copy back to Chicago. In the unlikely event I still have time before I go, I'll pick up with where I left off in Patrick Brogan's Captive Nations: Eastern Europe: 1945-1990, From the Defeat of Hitler to the Fall of Communism. It's an interesting read, a summary of the Communist era in each of the Eastern bloc countries, from the takeover through the fall. And it's also interesting to read as a historical document itself, since Brogan writes in 1990 and speculates on the effects of 1989 will have for the Soviet Union....

I must say, I rather enjoy the CD channels on our satellite provider. Or at least the one with classical music. It's relaxing, creates a nice ambience for when I want to read or do work, and exposes me to more fine classical music. I will definitely miss this when I return to Chicago and am forced to seek something comparable over the Web, though it will likely be of lesser quality....

Class dismissed.

neděle, prosince 21

Cheating bastards

This is a great article analyzing the underlying messages and themes of the new Hummer ad. You know, that one with the kid who enters the soapbox derby with a mini Hummer H2 cobbled together mainly from Fido's doghouse?

Anyway, it's great to see people getting this resentful of an ad. Even if, as the article's author confesses, the ad has a certain cool to it.

sobota, prosince 20

Update

You may notice that this page is exceedingly long.

That's good, though.

It means I finally got through piping all my old blog entries into this new blog. 'Twas rather a tedious process, being that I didn't know of any easier or quicker way to do it than this roundabout method: 1) create a new post here, 2) open the saved Web pages of yore, 3) manually copy the title and date and time, 4) view the source of the old page and copy the relevant section of text, thus ensuring that all my text formatting, links, etc. get preserved, 5) paste the text and then scour through it, removing any paragraph and line breaks so they didn't get doubled when Blogger went and did it only formatting on the raw text.

But it's done.

And as for the endless length of this page, that should only persist for another six days or so. I changed my settings so it would only show the current week on the front page, however, by current week Blogger seems to include anything actually added in this week, no matter what I set for the date and time. But I'm guessing if you're here that you've read all of the previous entries anyway, so there's no need for you to scroll down so far. :)

On the bright side, it has been rather fun playing around with and manipulating the raw html for my template. I'm quite pleased to report that this entire page has been edited solely by me (with assistance from Blogger). Granted, that's not nearly so impressive as building an entire page, let alone a whole site, from scratch, relying on raw coding and/or an editing program like Dreamweaver. But it's a decent accomplishment for me, all things considered. I'm getting closer to learning how to do the whole thing myself, which I think is easily attainable provided I get a little instruction from a book or knowledgeable person(s).

In the meantime, enjoy!

pátek, prosince 19

Back with a vengeance

So, Bloggedup decided to violate the spirit of the Internet, namely that the best things online are free.

Since Colleen and I created blogs with them, they've eliminated their free hosting plan, and evidently this week decided to delete all the remaining free blogs. Of course, they didn't bother notifying the persons affected by this development (i.e. us) of the impending change. Lo and behold, when I went to check my site Tuesday, it no longer existed.

This could have proved an unmitigated catastrophe, since I lacked any backup of my entries. (Funny, I assumed it was safe to leave them on the server, as it seemed less likely for them to be disappeared there than on my hard drive.)

Fortunately, Colleen remembered that Google caches all the pages it trolls, so doing a search for the old site yielded cached versions of all my entries. Except for the most recent one. In any event, I've saved all of them save the last one, and will be importing them here gradually. Just bear with me in the interim.

Also, you'll have to pardon my uninspired, generic layout. The spiffy design you all (both?) came to know and love will (hopefully) reappear here in the not-too-distant future, pending whenever Colleen can edit and upload it or I learn how to do that sort of thing myself.

Anyway, enjoy!

pátek, prosince 12

This is not a lending library

But I think the value of having a major chain bookstore like Borders or Barnes & Chernobyl is using it as one.

To wit: this afternoon, Colleen had to work. Rather than hang out in the Political Science Department or visit the University Library or lounge around alone and bored in her apartment, I opted to start in on reading some of the books I've added to my list of books I want.

Problem is, I neither own the books on my list, nor have the financial wherewithal to purchase them.

I suppose that a library might have a lot of them, at least the literary works. But I don't have a valid library card for anywhere in the Chicago area, and while I could probably procure one, I didn't feel like going to that trouble.

And that's where your local chain bookstore comes into play.

Chain bookstores are OK. They have a big selection and seats, but a lot of their shelves are stocked with pretty run-of-the-mill or trendy selections. Admittedly, titles vary according to local tastes, which is why you can encounter shelves of books by folks like Naomi Klein, Eric Schlosser and Molly Ivins here in strongly liberal Evanston, whereas an O.C. branch of the same chain wouldn't probably have most of those titles, what with all the room needed for the latest trash by Ann Coulter, Bill O'Reilly, et al.

And that's not to mention the ambience, or lack thereof, that these places exude. You don't get a nice, eclectic selection like you might find at a small, independent, or politically oriented store. Nor do you have such colorful characters minding the store. Plus, the ubiquity of pseudo-hip in-store coffeeshops (Starbucks -- egads!) effectively kills any cool.

But chain booksellers are great when you want to read a book but don't want to buy it.

To be fair, I would've loved to have bought many of the books on my list. However, again, I don't have the monetary resources required to obtain these titles without facing criminal prosecution (or ending up in a bread line).

So I opted to spend a couple of hours this afternoon sitting in the local Borders, reading The Assault, a 1982 novel by Dutch author Harry Mulisch about the life of a Dutchman whose parents and brothers are innocent victims of Nazi vengeance near the end of the Second World War. It was pretty good. Not quite on par with Kundera or some of the other contemporary authors I hold in the highest regard, but interesting in the psychology it concerns. I managed to read roughly the first half of it before departing. While I didn't enjoy stopping midway and contemplated buying the book to finish from the comfort of my own home (or girlfriend's apartment), having such a cliffhanger should ensure that I make it out to a bookstore in the O.C. when I'm back there as of Sunday.

Besides, it would've spelled defeat for me to ultimately buy the book when I could just finish reading it for free.

So, while I'm home for two and a half weeks, I plan on making liberal use of this public library concept. In between finishing my last two grad school applications and revising my thesis to submit for publication, I'll finish reading The Assault, then perhaps move onto Siegfried, another Mulisch novel. Maybe I'll follow that up with some Chomsky, or some other nonfiction political work. I also have half a mind to read Coulter's Slander or some other rightist work, mainly so conservatives can't accuse me of only getting one side of the story. Of course, I'd be a fool to blow my own cash on that, which makes the chain bookstore library excellent for the purpose.

If only they would let me take the books home without paying for them.

I swear I'd return them.

Maybe.

středa, prosince 10

In need of a dole queue

Well, I finally got word on one of the two jobs I had been pursuing. And, it wasn't good.

I'm not going to get to be a folksy Irish priest.

The long and short of it is that my odds at Mercy Home, which looked excellent some three weeks or so ago when I came back for a second round of interviews, didn't come through. I had been one of the final two candidates, except for some third person who interviewed for the first time after both of us had been in for a second round. I'm not sure the new guy wowed them, but he was evidently good enough to merit a second round of interviews and ultimately be offered the job this week. Them's the breaks.

What is more bothersome is that it seems I didn't get rejected because of a lack of qualifications. If anything, I was ridiculously overqualified and, from what I gather, the best applicant they had. The problem, it seems, is that whole being overqualified bit. Seems that this particular position keeps attracting a lot of talent. But that talent doesn't content itself to writing thank-you letters and other correspondence with donors for very long. Previous staff writers left within a year, often to pursue graduate work or other incredible opportunities. The folks at Mercy Home really wanted to avoid that.

They told me that in my first interview, and I thought I'd be forward with them and confess that I was in fact in the process of applying to graduate schools. Of course, I told them that it was to keep my options open, that it's where i'd eventually like to be, but that it was no sure thing that I'd be leaving come August or so. There's always the little matter of getting into a school and getting funding. Maybe that'll prove easier than I worry (and perhaps they think I'll have no problem getting accepted), but it's still beyond my control. Plus there's the whole having a girlfriend in school in Chicago till 2005. I kept telling them that in an ideal world I'd find a job I really liked, get into the grad school I wanted, and be able to defer admission (and funding!) a year till Colleen graduates.

But, my scruples may well have cost me the job. From what the guy said to me on the phone this afternoon, and from some things he's told me in previous conversations, I think that 1) I was the most-qualified candidate and 2) the person who got the job got it mainly because they knew he wasn't going to be leaving for grad school.

It just bugs me because I did the right thing, I was honest and up front, and my honesty has now bitten me in the ass. I'm bummed out because of this. I can't say I wouldn't be depressed if I hadn't gotten it because I wasn't qualified, or because someone else was a better candidate. But it's disappointing to know that I was the man for the job but didn't get it for such a lame reason.

Especially since it's so much up in the air. Obviously I'd be pretty unlikely to stick around here if, say, Stanford or Berkeley called me in the spring with the offer of a generous stipend and several years of funding to enter its Ph.D. program. But were I not to get into my top-choice schools, and only got accepted by, say, Washington or Indiana, I'd be hard pressed to leave right away for either school. In that case, I'd be extremely unlikely to give up a nice job in close proximity to Colleen to go to a school I didn't especially like in a place I'd rather not be. I've been advised not to go somewhere just for the sake of going, and I'd be a lot more likely to heed that advice, take a year to reapply in this situation. Oh well.

I still have a narrow hope that the other job, the contract position with the market research firm in Evanston, comes through. Though I don't have high hopes for that. I thought I'd hear from them last month, but not a word. And I haven't gotten a response to the e-mail and phone call I placed last week. But, I'll try calling again tomorrow, ever hopeful. It wouldn't be bad if I ended up getting this job. It has the advantage of being shorter-term, meaning I'd have no fears or guilt at having to potentially leave it in the summer. And it'd give me about a 2-minute commute by train to Colleen's apartment, making it much easier to see her more often. Plus, since it's a company as opposed to a nonprofit, the salary's likely to be better. But, being a contract post, it doesn't exactly entail benefits. Or labor rights. Which means I'm a lot more likely to end up in a situation like the HistoryMakers, where I got coerced into working ridiculously long hours in horrible conditions with no legal recourse. Except longer. Ugh.

And don't get me started on where I'll be if Conifer tells me they have nothing for me. I haven't been intensively searching for jobs the past month or so since I felt reasonably confident I get one of these two. I've been perusing listings with regularity, but nothing has caught my eye that I'd want to apply for. So I'd have to scour the want ads much more intently and begin the whole process anew, meaning it'll realistically be another month or two before I'd be working. Which doesn't exactly help my bank balance. Particularly once I finish applying to grad schools. (I calculated this evening that I'll spend about $630 on the whole process -- that includes the cost of the GRE, a test prep book, score reports, official transcripts, application fees and postage.)

So here's hoping I'm not homeless or back home again in the new year.

pondělí, prosince 8

Gentrification in action

A strange thought occurred to me this morning as I was awakened by the sound of heavy construction (or perhaps destruction) machinery in front of our building.

"I hope that's not our building they're tearing down."

This strikes me as more amusing than frightening. I mean, we moved into our apartment with the knowledge that, come next spring, the building will be demolished so a luxury single-family home can be erected on the lot. So it didn't seem entirely unreasonable or illogical to awake with mild trepidation at the prospect of occupying a building in the path of a wrecking ball (or earth mover as was the case). But it's highly amusing.

When I got out of bed and looked out the window, I saw trucks for a construction company, including an empty flatbed of the sort used to haul heavy machinery. However, the heavy machinery in question -- or construction activity, for that matter -- was nowhere in sight. So I didn't think much of it.

Fast forward to this afternoon, about the time Colleen and I were about to leave when I heard the distinct sound of breaking glass from outside.

I peered through the curtains to discover an earth mover not-so-gracefully removing the vestiges of the second floor of a (formerly) three-story house across the street.

It was quite cool, actually. It kept tearing away at the aluminum siding exterior, then it took out the last section of the second-floor bay window, then the railing on the stairs to the main entrance, followed by the awning over the front door, and then finally the front door itself. Quite a sight.

The 10-year-old boy in me wanted to go hurl rocks through the bay window on the ground floor, but I didn't get around to it.

I'm not sure what will go in the empty lot across the way. I'm guessing it'll be another luxury house. A new building about the size of ours a few doors down on the opposite side of the street recently sold for $1.8 million, so you can understand the temptation to tear down the old and build new. It's less the building itself than the real estate. This location, location, location is in a pretty desirable area, one where bankers and other folks with more money than sense want to live.

It's just kind of sad, because this gentrification prices poor folks like us out of the neighborhood. I mean, you can just see it from our window. Directly across from us, an old house is being demolished. Straight behind it, a new, pricey structure is being erected. If I could get a nice aerial view from the alley behind our building, you'd have a temporal progression of this whole process. Our old piece of crap is condemned but still standing, in front of it is another old dwelling meeting the wrecking ball, and behind that stand the beams and foundation of new luxury.

sobota, prosince 6

The scourge of reality

Nice little piece in the Times by David Brooks fearing that a convention week in New York City will turn Republicans liberal.

Oh yeah, the article's a hoot. For one, I love his gross mischaracterization of New York as a bastion of rampant liberalism. Because the city's two most recent mayors, Rudy "the red-faced nitwit" Giuliani and Michael "don't tell anyone I'm a Red Sox fan" Bloomberg, are real bleeding hearts.

My favorite part? How about this snippet:

"Liberalism doesn't just happen. It is a product of a certain environment."

That environment, Mr. Brooks, would be the real world.

čtvrtek, prosince 4

The price of freedom

Inspired by the PBS pledge drive screening of several Rick Steves episodes (I swear they only show his show during pledge drives), I fired up his Web site.

Anyway, I found an interesting essay he wrote about the cultural and social awakening travel has been to him, explaining how it has basically made him a dogged liberal on economic and cultural issues.

There's one particularly poignant passage in this vignette, when Steves remarks upon the high taxes in Switzerland and a Swiss friend replies "What's it worth to live in a country with no homeless, no hunger, and where everyone has access to good healthcare and a top-quality education?"

That pretty much sums up the difference in philosophies separating America from Europe, or most of the rest of the world for that matter.

I mean, honestly, wouldn't it be worth it to pay seemingly high taxes if it meant that all the folks in this country [just kidding] had a roof over their heads, food on their tables, clothes on their backs, doctors to call on for medical attention, good schools for their youth and the other benefits of a social democratic welfare state?

"But," you say, "such a utopia can only be a fantasy. No one would approve of higher taxes in America."

Except that it's not such a pipe dream. For one thing, Americans pay roughly the same amount in taxes as residents of most industrialized countries. Our income tax seems lower, but we have many more hidden taxes that tend to get overlooked in an international comparison of tax rates. The problem is, we don't get the same kind of return on our investment that folks in other countries do. Seems that when you consistently blow half of your country's budget on the military and the rest of the time are hellbent on creating a regressive, rather than progressive schedule of taxation, there isn't much to go around on piddling matters like education, healthcare or human services.

Really, you and I, Joe Sixpack, are getting the shaft. We (well, more you, since I don't have any income at the moment) drop a sizable chunk of change in Mean Uncle Sam's coffers, then watch him blow it on toys for the rich, or unnecessary projects that mainly benefit the rich. It's disgusting.

But I guess that's what it means to be an American. Not so much to love liberty as to treasure the freedom for the ultra-rich to get richer on the backs on everyone else. There's no logical reason for a lot of this to be so. Universal health insurance, for one, should already be a reality. And what's ridiculous and sad is that we could insure everyone in America without spending one dime more on healthcare than we already do. Simply switching to a single-payer system, like the one in place north of the border Canada way, would save enough money in consolidating the industry's bureaucracy (for all the griping antigovernment conservatives do about the "bloated bureaucracy," they seem to have no grasp of the fact that the private sector does no better in minimizing bureaucracy) to provide care to all Americans. We can't do that, however, because it'd mean socialized medicine.

So what? Yes, it's socialized medicine. Socialized. Socialized! Whoop-dee-freakin'-doo. Get over yourself. The private sector and free market have proven time and again their manifest inability to magically work out schemes by which everyone would be covered.

Furthermore, it's probably costing taxpayers more -- a lot more -- in the long run to have so many people without insurance. Preventative medicine and prompt care for relatively minor ailments and injuries cost a fraction of major surgery and prolonged hospital stays. But most Americans without health insurance (like myself) have to forgo basic medical treatment for these small problems because they can't afford the out-of-pocket costs. So the ailments don't get the relatively inexpensive, necessary care and are allowed to fester and worsen until they become full-blown major conditions, at which point these same folks without healthcare have to overburden public hospitals, again, at taxpayers' expense. Except that instead of looking at maybe a couple of hundred bucks for a doctor's visit and some simple remedy, we're talking about thousands of dollars in steep hospital fees, major medical procedures and expensive treatments.

This is the stuff that kills me. Conservatives and their dittoheads go on and on ad nauseum about how free markets are a panacea for everything and how the government is inherently bad, etc. But by their own logic, using a cost/benefit analysis, it doesn't add up. It's actually cheaper to the taxpayer to have these sorts of social programs than it is to turn a blind eye and cold heart to those on the lower eschelons of society.

In this regard, perhaps Michael Moore is right in his new book, Dude, Where's My Country, when he talks about how this is all a load of bull that a narrow group of the rich try to sell to the masses and largely succeed, thanks in great measure to the willy-nilly media and right-wing pundits who evangelize the gospel of Supply Side Jesus. Not that I'm generally one to believe conspiracy theories, but that's really not what this is. It's not an active conspiracy, per se, not like Bill Gates, Michael Eisner, Jack Welch, et al have formed a cell in their elusive Manhattan enclaves where they plot such havoc on the country and the world. But there is a lot of logic(!) in what Moore writes. Read it for yourself.

Rick Steves makes this interesting comparison where he talks about how Americans tend to view their relationship with government with an "us vs. them" mentality, whereas Europeans have more of a "the government is us" mindset. I think that's a useful dichotomy for understanding prevailing political attitudes in the two parts of the world. And if we accept this characterization, then you get a fascinating notion of how these two sorts of societies are organized. America, I would argue (as would many other people), is much more oligarchic and antagonistic. A powerful few wield most of the political and economic control, and the government seems to be of, for and by the elite rather than the people. Europe, by contrast, has a less stratified society and, I contend, a more vibrant democracy. And really, shouldn't we change popular perceptions of government, make people see it as an agent of us? If only we could inculcate a popular ethos of community, of shared mission and journey, people might not threaten rebellion everytime some political candidate had the gumption to propose universal healthcare.

Coming full circle, I'm just not sure what to make of the situation. I'm conflicted. On the one hand, I'm a committed social democrat. The anarchist in me is all for doing away with government and letting people help each other without coercion, but the realist in me sees a long and treacherous road ahead before attitudes and structures sufficiently evolve to make such a bold attempt. I simply believe government has an obligation to society to ensure a basic quality of living for everyone. I don't think I'm very radical in my beliefs, or at least in my methods. Despite my fascination with communism, I've taken enough history to know that it's not the route to go. But by the same token, I've been a socially and politically cognizant being long enough to recognize that unfettered capitalism won't promote the greater good.

One of the most unexpected but I think revolutionary ideas I've come to embrace is that capitalism is a great motor for social change. That's right. I'd be a fool to deny that profit motives exist, that people and companies don't operate in a fashion that will maximize their earnings. But what should also be obvious to anyone is that markets and economic actors, left to their own devices, will pursue largely predatory and uncreative means to make money. It's a lot easier to get rich by rigging the rules so that others do labor while you collect the spoils, but it isn't very productive or beneficial to anyone else. Besides, unadulterated capitalism isn't inherently good. Free markets promote monopolies and other anticompetitive arrangements that harm everyone but the monopolists. Innovation is a wonderful thing, one of humanity's proudest attributes. But some reigns have to be put on capitalism in order to realize its full potential. So, the key is to create incentives for people to innovate, to come up with new ways of doing things that serve everyone. And here's where it gets sticky.

Not being an economist or having much grounding in economic theory beyond the aggregate supply and demand curves I studied in high school macroeconomics, I'm not qualified to go into great detail on this. But essentially, I believe there is potential for the government to manipulate markets so as to encourage the economy to operate in a way that benefits society. For lack of a better name, and to borrow from my favorite historical epoch, I'll call this market socialism. The gist is that we'll let capitalism operate up to a point. So long as it fuels social welfare programs, protects the environment, doesn't compromise the future and continues to innovate, all while protecting the rights of workers and others, it can do as it sees fit. And while this might seem to greatly impinge the freedom of producers to produce (tough beans), it still allows quite a bit of latitude. But more importantly, it allows capitalism to do its thing and operate on all cylinders as the engine for social welfare.

While I don't know if that's ever going to happen, I do know that it's a lot closer to reality in Europe and other industrialized countries than it is here. And I'm not sure if that will ever change. It's hard for me to envision the sea change in the American political landscape (nice mixing of metaphors, eh?) necessary to institute such measures. So I don't know what to do. Is it worthwhile to agitate for reform, for change? I don't know (though I'll keep doing it regardless). Or maybe conditions will get so dire that we'll have some sort of great popular revolution that will create a new, better social order. Such a defeatist outlook doesn't seem particularly viable, nor necessarily palatable. Granted, the world has seen its share of bloodless, "velvet" revolutions in recent decades. But there have also been plenty of violent coups and rebellions, so it could be a mixed and/or disastrous blessing.

What then? Move to Canada? Or Europe? I'd love to live in Prague, or Krakow, maybe Dubrovnik or some other grand old city, both historical and modern, cosmopolitan, vibrant, livable. But my dreams (delusions, perhaps?) of doing that seem, well, pipe dreams. Realistically, I might learn Czech or German or another language well enough to converse and read and debate and communicate in a foreign land. And it's not inconceivable for me to take up residence elsewhere for a year or two, maybe even longer. But I won't ever fullybelong.

There's just something about uprooting one's self and relocating to a different culture that ends up unsatisfying. You can pack up and distance yourself from your old life, assume a new one, immerse yourself in a culture and adopt its customs and affectations, but you still can't fully embrace it because you can never get completely beyond your origins, even if those evolve and change so as to become unrecognizable in the time you're gone. Maybe I'm overcynical or jaded, or perhaps too influenced by Milan Kundera's outstanding novel, Ignorance, which addresses the émigré experience, undoubtedly influenced by that of Kundera. But at a certain fundamental, (gulp) essential level, there's a certain Americanness to me I don't feel I can ever fully transcend. Perhaps if I had moved abroad earlier, as a child, and completed my socialization and adolescence in a different culture, it might be different. I could move more fluidly between cultures and feel completely and equally at home in both. But that's not the case.

This worries me. I'm not sure why. Perhaps I feel it an obstacle to having the temerity to move abroad, to emigrate, to sever all but the essential ties to my homeland and transplant myself elsewhere. It's a nice thought at times. I'm not sure I could ever bring myself to do it, at least not permanently, but then I wonder if my trepidation is mainly the product of my Americanness and the recognition that I will forever be possessed of this.

Or perhaps it's the shame evoked by my Americanness. I seldom feel like this is really my country, that it belongs to me, that I belong to it. Yet it's mine all the same. That's a prickly pill to swallow. Many times I'd like to renounce all ties to this country, particularly as its government commits many horrific crimes in my name. But I effectively can't. I can turn my back on my citizenship, but I can't very well adopt a new homeland. So I remain conflicted.

Maybe I should just move to Canada. Culturally, it's fairly close to America. And its social and political values appear in line with my own. So perhaps that's the most workable solution. I just wish it weren't so bloody cold in Toronto. Or Vancouver. Or Ottawa.

středa, prosince 3

Van Go away

I think I've described my apartment previously. At least, I think I've mentioned the highlights, like it coming semi-furnished, not requiring a security deposit and having ridiculously low rent. And I've probably at least touched on the lowlights, like the very rough, splintery hardwood floor in the living room, the shortage of functioning overhead lights in the common rooms, the ever-trickling bathroom sink, the dearth of electrical outlets, the inability of the circuitry to power more than one appliance at a time and, of course, the sub-Arctic temperatures routinely recorded in my room and other parts of the downstairs.

So, I gather you have a pretty good idea of why we have such cheap rent. Well, that and the little (minor, really) detail about the building being demolished in the spring to make way for a luxury single-family home. (Gentrification, yeah!)

But you'd be sorely mistaken. Because it seems the real reason we're getting away with paying so little is the weekly cacophony that emanates from downstairs.

See, our landlord Lou, formerly the tenant in the first-floor apartment in our building, has a pop band, Van Go that uses the downstairs as rehearsal space every Wednesday night. I'd say they play music, but that'd really be too kind. In the words of my roommate, Joe, "it's hard to believe they work so hard to be that bad." Amen.

Once, not long after we moved in here, Lou left a quarter-sheet flier under our door for a gig he and his band were playing with The Shazam and The Boss Martians, the two hottest pop bands on the planet. We didn't go. In fact, we just laughed at the prospect of Lou and his ilk playing in some yuppie dive. I know, you're as shocked as I was at the thought of passing up The Shazam and The Boss Martians. After all, they are the two hottest pop bands on the planet. But it ain't gonna happen.

Even if we hadn't possessed a healthy aversion to pop, I doubt Joe and I would've gone. Or even if we hadn't had this misfortune of hearing Van Go "perform" weekly, I don't think we'd have gone. After all, there's just something really suspect about a pop band whose bassist is a landlord and banker. His bio on the official Van Go Web site notes that he is "bass 'vocals' [dubiety in original] Sweat-stained t-shirts with controversial slogans". Joe and I are pretty sure that means he wears grungy threads advocating the Fed to slash interest rates. (What else could be "controversial" to a banker?)

The moral of the story, however, is that Lou, Van Go, et al are really, really bad. It's hard to place whether they suffer from a lack of musicianship or simply just exceedingly poor taste in "music"; regardless, it's not aesthetically pleasing to have to listen to through my floor. More like incessant psychoterrorism. We're considering threatening him with eviction if he keeps this up. Either that, or we'll bribe him to let us destroy his guitar.

Leaded

Ah, the wonders of a good night's sleep. Last week, while stuck among the cornfields of Indiana, my grandma drove Colleen and I to the Costco in Indianapolis (Indy to the locals), ostensibly so I could exchange the pair of fleece lounge pants I had bought in Lincoln Park but got home to discover that I had picked up a size small.

Anyway, returning the pants proved surprisingly painless. And I even found a pair in the right size. But beyond that, I really didn't need much. Yet it seemed a shame to have driven the 45 miles or so to Indy for such a minor deed. So Colleen and I decided to leisurely browse the store.

We -- I should say I -- got a package of cheese cubes to replenish Colleen's supply, which I had mostly decimated in a rash of intensive snacking. She bought some nice dried fruit snack packs. And we chanced upon a cheap air mattress. Queen size, in fact. And, best of all, a mere 15 samoleans. This is a far cry from all the air mattresses we had seen previously, which ranged from $35 to more than $100, often for just a twin-sized bed.

The air bed wasn't essential, but it made for a more comfortable sleeping surface than I had been using for overnight visits to Colleen's apartment, namely a crudely formed bed of cushions from her aging loveseat. This air mattress, I discovered, offers a lot more support, not to mention it's more than two feet wide, so I no longer have to sleep half on the floor. Of course, the queen size makes a bit of a challenge when it comes to fitting it in her room. Though if we just remove everything save her dresser and bed, it squeezes in.

But, I slept great last night. I think I was out seven hours before I even woke up, and I wound up getting nine or 10 hours of sleep total.

Only problem is, I'm not really tired. And I should be. Given that it's past 4 a.m. I blame the bed, since I slept way, way too late. Of course, the almost two quarts of chai tea I drank since dinner can't be helping much. So, I'm left to ponder ways to tire myself out or otherwise induce sleep. Like updating my blog. For the third time in about three hours. Which probably equals as many entries as I've posted in the past month and a half.

But hey, I'm getting back in the habit again, no?

Me again

I really should avoid neglecting this space. It's just difficult to get back into the habit after falling out of it for so long. But, I've gotta do it somehow.

Anyway, not a lot has occurred lately. I finished and submitted my applications to Berkeley and Michigan last week, which is good. Up next are Columbia (15 Dec.) and Stanford (16 Dec.). Fortunately, I shouldn't have a lot to do for either of those. I essentially just need to rewrite the statement of purpose I first wrote, adapting it to fit the word length and other specific criteria set by each school. That, and excerpting an appropriate number of pages of my thesis (which, arguably, could prove more difficult).

But I'm really looking forward to grad school The academic life, in general. I really like the thought that, although I'll be a historian (-in-training), I'll get to dabble in other disciplines, like sociology and anthropology, even political science and economics, though to a lesser degree. Plus, I can read a lot of great literature and watch some fantastic films. I was browsing Amazon or Barnes and Noble online last week and there are just so many fabulous Eastern European films I've either seen (small number) or want to see (big number). It's great, too, because as a scholar of the period, I can place these films in their historical context and thus appreciate a lot of the themes and issues they address. Chief among these is Musíme si pomáhat (titled "Divided We Fall" in English, though a truer and more fitting translation would be "We Must Help Each Other" or even "United We Stand"), an outstanding film that raises tough questions about the nature of collaboration. Films like this that illustrate an issue like this in so many shades of gray convey an idea, capture the essence of an era, in a way difficult to accomplish in other forms. So, I'll definitely be making liberal use of films as a teaching aid when I'm a professor.

And, there's also literature. Again, in the Czech case, there are scores of talented, brilliant Czech writers who really capture the spirit of a nation and its history. (Czech film is highly distinguished in its own right, from the émigré works of Milos Forman to the less ballyhooed directors Jan Sverak and Jan Hrebejk.) The really difficult, grueling, thankless work ahead of me, of course, is to read all these literary works and watch these films. Tough job, but someone's gotta do it, eh?

I also continue to entertain notions -- delusions, really -- in my head of writing works of a literary nature. Unfortunately, I think such an endeavor will prove rather fruitless, or the fruit it bears will be sour or rotten. First, I can't envision putting in the long hours and effort necessary to conceive a great work and make it really come to life, developing a plot, crafting a narrative, employing the myriad literary devices required to produce something of value. Not bloody likely. Even worse, if somehow I did acquire the discipline or compulsion to sit down and write, I'm afraid I'd be stumbing over my academic-ese. I like to think I write extremely well for a scholar, but my writing still bears the hallmarks of, well, a scholar. I'm given to dense prose and all sorts of other academic conventions of speech that play in the ivory towers of academia, but don't really lend themselves to literary masterpieces. I just don't quite have that ability to turn a phrase, that absolute mastery and command of the language, and more importantly its devices, to make it happen. Alas.

Still, I'd like to try, on some level, to make a go at it. But I don't exactly have any brilliant ideas for how to get started. Maybe I should heed the advice Kurt Vonnegut gave a previous graduating class at Northwestern. (Of course it wasn't mine; we had to get Wendy Chamberlin -- Wendy friggin' Chamberlin, a USAID hack helping screw up Central and South Asia even more, and serving up us grads "Wendy's Top Ten Words O'Wisdom Dot Com", a pathetic caricature of most every commencement speech ever delivered.) Vonnegut told the grads to create something and then throw it away without ever showing it to anyone, essentially exhorting us folks with an edumacation to create art for art's sake. So perhaps that's the route for me to follow. To write things and then delete them.

Sure, I'd be driving all of my loyal readers (Colleen) the torture of reading my prose, but I might feel like I've made some strides or at least scratched my creative itch.

úterý, prosince 2

Nothing to see here

Move along.